I’ve been aimless for a long time. Searching for that one goal that I want to work towards. It’s like nothing have been there to push / pull me. Like I’m just passing the day because I ain’t dead yet. Like a zombie, aimlessly walking around, no goals, no mission, nothing. How do people actually find a goal, stick to it and work towards it ? What actually happens after you achieve that particular goal that you wanted all along ? Does another goal comes immediately ? Or do you return to square 1 ? Life questions that can’t be answered, questions that answers aren’t that easily discovered.
I wanted to be a Lawyer last time. It faltered. It wasn’t that strong as when I was a kid. Then I wanted to become a Host, but the reason is utterly ridiculous. To meet those superstars. Why would I want to meet those superstars which I don’t even deem them stars myself ? It’s like me meeting a famous star from another country, with fangirls / boys screaming at him, while I don’t even know who they are screaming their lungs out for. Now that I’m in the Hospitality & Tourism course. The thought of both jobs just went disassembled into smaller pieces.
I’ve always been lazy, lazing around as much as I can. Doing as little things as possible, everything that doesn’t catch my interest, I won’t even bother. I seldom do things because I want, most of the time it is because I need to, no choice. Like going to school, taking the extremely long ride of the bus(its ridiculous).
Sometimes, I just want to sit down at a big patch of grass and just fly a kite. Flying kite is like watching your stress go up high, like giving a pause to life. You know that you have to clear it somehow, but you just want to give life a pause. Hmmmm . It’s been a long time since I last flew a kite. I lost my 40m kite too T_T
Back to the topic, every job have their fair share of stress. Every job have their fair share of audience. Nothing in the world is easy. Everything is difficult to begin with, one just need somebody to assist to allow it to be easier.
Life goals , how many teenagers at my age actually have it ?
With something to protect, the willpower increases, the human will gain strength.